Hello. I take my weekly confession pretty seriously.
I confess:
I confess:
- I think I might be addicted to this confession stuff.
- I was in a really great mood just moments ago and now I'm really not.
- Sometimes I feel so empty and alone in my marriage that I want to give up.
- I wonder if I really have it in me ... eternity.
- I've never been really good with the follow through. Not in golf, not in anything.
- I wish my husband had a better/nicer/prettier/less humiliating wife and I love him so much it kills me to know he's stuck with me.
- I watched a French film, Shall We Kiss (Un Baiser S'il Vous Plaît), and I loved it SO much.
- I also love the song According to you, by the very cool Orianthi.
- They both make me so very, very sad.
- I miss my dad. A lot more than I think I should (It'll be 10 years this St. Patrick's Day).
- Sometimes I wish I could hug him and hold him and feel loved unconditionally.
- I feel a smidge unlovable right now.
- I hope it goes away.
8 Brilliant Bits of Inspiration:
I hope you feel better soon, I know those feelings.. they suck, but mine usually dont last long so I hope you get to feeling better real soon ♥
I totally know those feelings! I spent 3 months inpatient dealing with them...feel btter andif you don;t let me know!!!
Promise?!
***hugs*** Hang in there, I know something of how you feel. You're amazing, and no, I'm not just saying that.
Baby you are WAY hard on yourself! I think having spring around the corner will make us all feel better before long. (When you lose a loved one, it goes on and on forever. You don't "get over it" but your heart heals and you can think about the good times. It takes as long as it takes, Honey.)
Did you know you are in the HARDEST years for marriage? When the kids are all little, all clingy, all demanding. Taking ALL of you with them. I'd be HE is lonely too. Reach out.
I have survived those years, not unscathed in my heart or marriage, but managed to get to a new place, still married.
My kids are all older. More independent. Able to be left alone for a glorious hour so the Hubs and I can steel away to Home Depot and a few minutes of US- even if they are unglamorous minutes.
Grip your fingers in and dig- hang on and find whatever small moments you can. You WILL get through the exhausting little kid years- and look back hardly remembering the lonely. It is hard but YOU are strong.
Aw, I love you for writing that stuff. Seriously. We all feel it, but hardly anyone is brave enough to write it. Whenever me and Ivan hit a good time, I tell him, 'hang on, it's not going to last long!' We are not a lovey-dovey couple AT ALL, but that's not because I don't want it to be. I wonder sometimes how on earth I can contemplate just leaving our marriage so often. At least a few times a month. FOR SEVEN YEARS. And he's not abusive, he's not a bad guy, it's just super hard for us to be married to each other. Is that TMI? Anyway, all I'm saying is I feel your pain. And I hate feeling unlovable, and that someone should be able to fix that, but no one does. And sometimes I feel so vulnerable to anyone who WOULD connect with me emotionally, cuz I'm starving that way. Aaah. Anyway. Thanks for confessing, you're not alone. If you ever feel like sharing with a virtual BFF, just shoot me an email.
Fab post. Not that I am happy you are sad but I think you spoke to every women's soul. I think we all feel that way at times. Poor guys. I wonder if they could even help us if we gave them step by step directions. Love them but I think we are wired so differently.
Ok, missy! You need to be nicer to yourself! I say this because you say things that I think about myself and seeing someone else say them makes me realize how off base it really is!
Now go get a Pepsi and some chocolate and give yourself a hug!
Your husband, kids and all your friends love you for a reason!!
I am really sorry about your dad! I can't imagine it ever gets easier!
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