I promise you, no one loves this blog as much as I do.
I started blogging On May 24, 2006 ... the day after my baby turns 2, my blog will turn 4.
I'm one of those people who get a wacky idea, get all excited about it, start on it (if we're lucky), then kind of give up. And never finish.
The blog is perfect. And mine. Maybe the only thing I have done that I am completely humbled by and proud of.
My blog.
And still there is so much more that goes on in my life and in my head. So many deep and personal things I can't blog about. I am afraid of the consequences. I can't even glaze across the topics.
No one is an island.
It tolls for thee.
I have moments where I imagine what I'd say, how I'd like to say it. Just let it all be out here. I really would. But I can't.
So.
This is how it always is, isn't it? How it always has been. We pretend things are true, but it's incomplete and we hint at other truths and only God knows what is real and whole.
Is that how we want it to be? Wouldn't it be better to lay it all out? I would rather. Just let it all be out there.
I fell in love with the word avocado today. The vowels are what got me, really. And they taste good.
5 Brilliant Bits of Inspiration:
:) AvoCAdoooooo.........it is good to play .
and i think we all - who blog- get to choose what we leave out... sometimes a whole blog in and of itself. its not falsity, just complexity.
i fell in love again with 'shuffle off this mortal coil' and by the time i was done, it involved loofah and boil. hooboy.
good word...I like moxie ;)
I like it all out there as well...I would just as soon someone see the good, the bad, and the ugly that is me and love me in spite of it all, then have the lingering doubts that they came to know and love a tripped-out, wished-for version of myself. I compromised, and settled for Tiffany, the edited version ;)
I would love to blog more but I compartmentalize who I tell what to. I don't think I can be that open to anybody and everybody that might read it. It's odd that I would want to be so open to the world but not to all my personal friends and family.
It is easy to have more than one blog, though unlikely a more "private" blog would be as good as this one. But does it need to be as good? No really. Because of my topics, I try to stay somewhat anonymous, myself. I like being able to write what I do and get feedback, without embarassing the people I love... because my topics can be of that nature.
This is such a truth. What we share IS true, nothing pretend about that. But it's not all, and so much goes unsaid or unwritten about, at least in this space. This post, and this reality, reminds me of the Emily Dickinson line: "Tell all the truth / but tell it slant."
xo
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