What Have I To Be Happy About?

So, on a day when I want to complain about my life, my husband, my furnace; when I feel fat, ugly, and like a complete laughable failure in the most personal and intimate of ways, I will avoid all that, push it away and try a new experiment. One where I smile anyway, think happy thoughts, chuck out the unhelpful and essentially destructive emotions that have filled me up and want me to cry out the overflow. I will acknowledge the emotions or bad thought (I am an ugly monster and ought not even so much as stick my head out of my door), I will ask myself it this is relevant or useful information to my situation (and of course it's not useful, and even if it's true, I'd still like to be happy instead), assessing it as not relevant, I will let it go where ever bad thoughts go - to hell or out into the ether, but I have no use for it.

Things to be happy about;

The furnace fixing guy should be here between 11-2 today and the house is staying at 69, so we're not freezing, just chilly.

I am pregnant, but not only that, it's my baby girl, and not only that, but I'm 5+ months and wearing not-maternity pants and this is child #3.

I have lovely green eyes.

My 2 year old peed in his little potty today.

My house is mostly cleaned up.

I have lots of food options for lunch and I'll be going with the one I want the most, a French dip sandwhich, with aus jous, and grapes and steamed spinach. And yes, I will have a pepsi with my lunch today, diet cherry, thank you.

The litty litter got changed yesterday so therew ill be no mortification when the furnace guy goes in there.

I clipped my toenails and they feel much better.

The sun is out and the barometer is pointing up.

My hair is soft and shiney and will be lovely and grown out eventually.

My kids like me a lot.

I have everything I need and most everything I want and the things I want, I can do without for ever and still be fine.

I live in a big nice house, the nicest I have ever lived in - the plumbing is very reliable, the neighborhood is respectable, my husband has a great job and he likes it a lot.

After nearly 10 years of marriage I am still very in love with my husband, I kiss him and tell him I love him every day - I got married too young, but it has all worked out much better than I ever expected it could.

I am a child of God, I know that I have a personal connection with Divine power and am entitled to divine inspiration; I know that God hears and answers prayers and I know that the more closely I keep my life in line with what is Right, the easier it is for me to feel His love and Guidance. And mostly I know when I choose to live Right, I am happy.


Okay, I think I'm okay ... this wasn't as cathartic or pathetic as it might have been ... so I still have a bunch of constipated emotion, but I'll keep working on flushing it away. Now to fix that lunch I want.